So...Where to start???
Well, we have met all our milestones with ease, with the exception of walking. Liam is still not walking yet. He he is cruising and pulling up, and he enjoys taking walks with you if you hold his hands! We are no longer wrapping his feet, or any other part for that matter, because 7 months ago I figured out that we had come to the point where it was doing more harm than good. So, if you adjust the time to his current activity level, we are still pretty much on point. He wouldn't even put pressure on his feet 7 months ago, the bottoms were very blistered. Through meticulous wound care, various ointments and trials, we have clear soles. He has been putting pressure since I stopped wrapping, and they cleared themselves right up. Mind you that he no longer does reflex kicking either, he doesn't rub his heels anymore or scrunch up his toes. We still have feet problems, don't let all that positivity lead you astray...they just aren't on the soles, the migration has occurred onto the sides now. Currently we are working our way onto his arch, and I am keeping my fingers crossed that it doesn't impede his progress and make him not want to walk. If it does, well...again, its life. They come and they go. We are also dealing with some nasty blisters on his hands. Not a lot of blisters, but the ones that are there are tough, deep and they wont go away! He is pretty unphased though. Barely ever complains about it. He has figured out how to play around the boo boos and to be gentle. Oh, my...he is the most gentle and gracious baby I have ever seen. He really is careful about his skin, and he figures out how to manipulate his environment to make things work for him. Of course, he still gives us a piece of his mind during wound care...but at this point, it is more out of boredom and frustration. I rarely ever make him hurt. I think that it is a relief to get the blisters popped. They don't itch or burn after they are drained (in my personal experience) and I think that in his 15 months, the little fella has figured that out. We are down to 2 sessions a day...maybe an hour in the morning (bottle, wounds, and clothing on) and since he likes his long baths, it still takes about an hour and a half at night. So, he has improved much in the year I have been neglecting my blogging! I am very happy to say that this time last year I was under a tremendous amount of stress and sadness about his skin, so much that I couldn't imagine it EVER getting any better. I have to admit, I had heard so many people tell me that the first year is the worst year, I actually prayed to make it fly by so I could just enjoy him and not stress about his skin so much. So, here we are...and it proved true for him. Thank you God. Although, I do wish that the time wouldn't fly so fast, the lesson here I have learned is that "that day" that you wish for, always comes...so try not to rush it. We always end up at today, so I am just trying to revel in every moment of my life so that I dont miss a thing when I look back. Everything has its stage and every thing eventually passes. I am really not stressing his skin anymore. I have an arsenal of remedies that I can fire off whenever we have an issue. We have a small stock pile of different wound care supplies, and ABOVE ALL, I have learned so much from the EB community and through trial and error that there is no blister that cannot be popped...er, or handled. I'm not cocky enough to say "Oh, I got this" but I am enlightened enough that I do know what to do. Thankfully, because now I can pass it on to others and hope and pray that they have the same successes!! So, besides our hands, feet and knees...we are doing quite well. He has my skin...yup...but he also has my attitude!
Lets see...what are Liam's favorites?? (Right, other than Mommy and Daddy?) Well, he loves the Backyardigans, I tell you that! He bops his head to the music and laughs at them. He likes mac and cheese, black olives, mandarin oranges, chicken parm, jello, banananananas, pirouette cookies, crackers, coooooookies, our pets, fish(ies), loves being read to, cars (cahhhhhs), buses, planes, cats, balls, computers, butterflies, the pool, walks, the beach, bird(ies), feeding the birds, pens, phones, remotes...wait, shouldn't I just tell you what he doesn't like? Because the kid pretty much likes everything. There are, of course, a lot of foods that no longer tickle his fancy, but he is really agreeable and excitable. He is very easy to please. There really isn't much that makes him cringe. He is such a happy baby, he has fun...he really does. He loves to clap for himself and aims to please. He loves the praise we give him, and he gets a lot of that. We cheer and squeal for everything, and it has reinforced some really cute behaviors. He rarely even gets told no, but then again, he did just start cruising around. He hasn't officially gotten himself into trouble yet. (Well, tried to eat a pen the other night, but I nipped that one.) Oh, his favorite is when I run away from him and hide behind a corner. He anticipates my reappearance by cocking his head towards wherever I have run, and when I come back out, I jump out and run towards him or past him and behind some other door or object. He LOVES that. He can be crying his little heart out and if I play that game, it gets him every time. Most adults will look at me like I am nuts (we do this in public, yes we do) but I don't give a poo, it makes my boy hysterical. Can't beat that. He is so loved. He is such a little blessing. My life is completely perfect. He was what was missing.
So, you asked how I am?? Well, thank you! No one ever asks about me anymore!
I am well! Into my last semester of clinicals! In May, when I graduate, I will be an RN. Such an accomplishment for me to have done all this while taking care of the rest of my life and keeping my sanity! I am so excited that I am going to be able to help people in the way that I want to. I can't stress enough that nursing is my calling. It was what I was meant to do (well, taking care of my family also) and it is where my passion is. I'm going places, you wait! :-)
I have recently lost almost 40 lbs...YEA!! Got rid of that pregnancy weight, still got some to go, but I can sure tell you how much better I feel about Melissa. I am really putting my pieces together. Getting to that place of self acceptance and confidence. It has been such a long road for all of my struggles, but I will say that I am happy with who I am. Finally. Whew, that actually felt really good to say that. I am really happy with the way I handle motherhood, too. All too often us moms question whether or not we are good, worthy moms...and I can honestly tell you that I don't ask this. I know that I am a good mom. The 4,000 pictures of my smiling kid gave me that idea. And the smile at the end of the day (mostly...today I got a push to the nose when I left and snubbed when I got home.)
Well, that is the beginning to a new year of consistent posting. Like always, feel free to leave me your comments, even if you seem to have a problem with my happiness...and if you are in any way involved with EB and need a friend, feel free to email me. Also, I am on facebook at Melissa Krawiec-Curtis (...never scared to leave my name anywhere) and I do accept friend requests, on the honor system that you really want to be my friend and not request me maliciously. Toodles for now, God bless!!